Never had any to begin with, really.

Just watched zombieland again. Doggone it, if an american nerd can find love in a zombie-infested world (and by love I mean human to human love), so can I in the real world.

XD

Saturday’s coming. Or more accurately the events of Saturday are coming.

You know back when I was a kid, I was felt that life dragged on too slowly. Meh, primary school was too slow. Meh, secondary school was too awkward. But now? Life’s zooming past. Before I know it, another week has flown past and I’m one week closer to assignments, graduation and army. And the weeks aren’t pretty too. There’s always something to be done.

I don’t know about every other soon to be not teen (i.e. 19 going on 20), but I do feel worried about growing up. If 18-19 is any indication, responsibility is never a good friend. It’s something that’s gonna bite you again and again.

Gosh I mope a lot in these posts. So much for Christmas spirit eh?

Depressing rain.

It’s pretty depressing for it to rain everyday. Don’t get me wrong, I love rain and cold weather just as any Singaporean does just to avoid the heat, but rain does keep me wet. And I fear for my handphone and iPod -.-

Yes, minor issues.

But anyway it’s a Friday again as people love to proclaim. To me it’s just a prelude to a weekend of work work and more work. It’s such a depressing notion sometimes, but one does have to remember one’s responsibilities- service service and service. To whom? Obvious…

School has been strangling me with projects. It’s the last semester and it’s pretty much showing who’s boss. I’ve been grumpy and moody all week because of projects mind you. I dare not even look at my calendar to see all the project deadlines I have. Again, depressing.

But hey, Christmas is coming near! Where commercialism roams and the year seems that much brighter. The time of the year where my bank account starts to weep silently. Poor thing you. Maybe I’ll just stick to giving out letters this year

 

Fishsticks.

Apparently there was epic flooding in school today… and I missed it because I had a class and presentation to attend for. Sigh, what’s good being a year 3 if I don’t get to experience moments like these???

Oh yea, work all around is still slowly driving me mad. Half the time I was burying my head in my hands will using the laptop for work. I know I have a low propensity for stress but this is just ridiculous…

Ah well. Maybe I’ve not been praying as much as I need to to stave off stress. Maybe.

 

The world rain blows down on you,

And all we can do is take it.

I see cruelty in this madness,

Because this madness is taking hold of me.

Descriptive!

I’ve found a chink of information about myself that I never new was true- I can do work while listening to music!

Yes, I’ve been trying to do work at night the last few days; at least until I feel tired. Listening to music today however has made me quite awake and rather… motivated to do work. Thanks Snow Patrol

It’s been yet again, another tough few days. I don’t like to complain (whine maybe) but every waking hour is concerned with some form of work, for me. It’s a living nightmare sometimes! Like having to think… to scheme every single minute and waking moment. Tiring eh?

But hey, something to distract me for the moment is that Dad is thinking of getting a DSLR for the family. Maybe then I’ll finally find some me time and take a few nature walks to take pics. With a DSLR. WOO.

Two less lonely people in the world…

Call me a conservative, but I always held love as something of the highest regard.

I’d always (and I still do) look at secondary school romances and think ‘Heh, that ain’t gonna last.’ Admittedly, that was rather childish and presumptive of me but really, what do teenagers know about love and commitment?

Ehh, I most certainly could be called a wet blanket about being so negative in life, or that I’m jealous because I never had the chance to experience it before, but I think I’ve looked at it long and hard (19 years to do so) and I’m pretty darn sure I’m not missing out on anything. In life we take a long time to make the important and crucial decisions to buy a car… buy a house… buy a laptop… everything material thing that incurs money, but what about quite possibly something that would cost us the most both financially and emotionally, that is a relationship?

I guess we do take it for granted that love comes free (initially) and that the intoxication we feel when we first experience it is only temporary. Like drugs, there are highs and lows for love.

But unlike drugs, we can quit love easily. The free things are often the easiest to junk yea?

zzz for the zzz

If there is the Monday Blues, then surely Lazy Sunday comes into effect.

Oh yes, I’ve been sorely lazy today. I really really really wanted to do work, but so far I’ve come up with my 1000th to-do list on my computer. Yes… it looks at me with such strictness. Damnit I really hate work.

Doesn’t help that I feel sleepy too. Had to be in church ridiculously early today at 7.30am for Youth Camp publicity, and that probably caused me to have 2 naps. 2 naps, sigh.

I guess I could go onto another rant about how routine life has become and how choice has been taken away from me blah blah blah… but choice and responsibility comes together, don’t they? I chose to be responsible for things, and even if those things swamp me with work, damned be me if I don’t do them.

Big words… Damn lazy sunday:(

Never…

The night is a bit darker, and the world a bit colder.

I’m not okay.

Sigh.

One thing I’ve managed to convince myself is that I like school… and I’m pretty sure I’m not being delusional here.

It does give me a shit load more of assignments and projects to worry about, but it sure does give me a lot of things to do. Too many poly students have the wrong idea that school should be a touch-and-go thing, save for meeting your friends there and going out after that. This coming from someone who goes to enough church meetings to rival school hours. Sort of.

Meh, I’m thinking about school because it’s my last semester here. I guess it’s not too often that you take a 2 year break from official studying, so when you do it’s best to be glad for the good times. Army is a whole new adventure, although I’m sure it’s one I really want to get over and done with.

Yes… slow updating period. Got lotsa work you know. Sigh.

Under construction

Yes the lack of updates has not gone un-noticed. Trying to get a hold of my very very very muddled life now. You don’t start doing tutorials because you got assignments… you don’t sleep early because you have assignments… you don’t perform well because you don’t have enough sleep…

The list goes on… Updating soon!